| The one thing that stands out...
Oh boy, that's a doozie!
In looking at the whole experience collectively, and trying to keep it to a manageable length, the thing that stands out to me is how I saw God's hand in my participation in this mission trip.
I now know, without a shadow of doubt that God wanted to work on me in Nicaragua.
- He showed me early-on that I was to go, and then regularly reminded me in various ways that I was to go. Although I knew it wasn't going to be a comfortable trip and numerous challenges awaited, knowing that God was directly moving in this regard is a great motivator. - He provided the funds - He cleared my schedule ...and the list goes on...
So, NOT going was not an option, but I really didn't WANT to go. I didn't surrender to it. I wanted to be with my family, I had work to do, etc.
On the plane over, God started working on me, convicting me. My daughter, Allison, wrote a note and placed it in my Bible and I found during the flight. In it was a verse that hit me between the eyes, II Tim 2:15...Do you best to present yourself to God as one approved, a workman that needs not be ashamed, who correctly handles the word of truth. Of all the verses in the Bible, this is the one she chose...another non-coincidence!
I took from that verse:
- Fake it 'till you make it - It doesn't say BE approved, but present yourself to God as approved. It also says do your best, implying that failure is just part of the journey, but try anyway. - To God - it's not about me or others...it's between God and me. It's him that I have to give account to. - A workman - Not a philosopher, scientist or anything else...it's time for work, or doing - Correctly handles the word of truth - That's spreading the gospel
So I determined to play full-on for the week. There on the plane, I surrendered and said, I'll do it...whatever it takes.
And I did. I did not shrink away from opportunities to share or serve. God pushed me too. I was thrown into the mix quickly and was sharing my testimony Sunday and the gospel first thing Monday morning. I tried not to miss an opportunity to share Christ and advance our mission in Nicaragua. I have lots of stories of small ways that God presented these opportunities, but clearly he used the team in wonderful ways in Nicaragua. It was also the first time in my Christian life that I FULLY surrendered.
You see, I spent 20 years running from God, and for the last 6 years I've been walking with God by all appearances. I've been in church, playing active roles, even going through the motions of having occasional quiet time, prayer, classes, etc. That's not surrendered. That's hiding in plain sight. God really convicted me of this while in Nicaragua. He showed me how to be surrendered while in Nicaragua, walked with me, and used me...He got my attention.
So that's my take-away from the trip. Live surrendered. How can I be surrendered on this side of the mission trip? What does fully surrendered look like here, in Jacksonville? I'm working on that, but this is how I'm striving to live the balance of my life.
Bruce Dear Church Family The one thing that stood out to me was the openness of the people in Nicaragua. And the fact that they were willing not only to listen to what we had to say but they wanted to share with family and friends. Nolan Pelfrey Dear Church Family The one thing that stands out to me in Nica was the love and joy they have for all they have in life. they make the best of everything they had and seem to be the happiest people on earth. Shane Heisler
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